Where the ocean meets the sky

My heart was sore, but I pretended to be tough

2011-10-02T11:55:00.000-07:00

12th of August. After a year of waiting, and waiting.. finally I was back home for a month. I touched down in KLIA wearing a big grin on my face, because Malaysia is where I came from, I belong here. I remember I was very anxious and excited at the airport, it was a mixture of emotions that can't be explained in words. I waited at the baggage reclaim point, hoping to be the first to collect my baggage, and also the first one to throw a big hug to my beloved family members, who were already waiting for a long time. As I was pushing my luggage trolley to the meet up point, deep down I was only hoping for one simple wish, I was hoping that everything remains the same. But very soon the reality came crashing down, I saw the significant changes that I hated very much. I couldn't help but to notice more wrinkles at the corner of those tired eyes. My heart was sore, but I pretended to be tough.

13th of August. I woke up this morning sniffing on the pillow where my head was laid, and I smiled. I knew I wasn't living in a dream this time, because I recognised the old and distinctive scent on my pillow. I spent the rest of the day with the family reminiscing the past, sharing and listening to each other's stories. All of a sudden, I was showered with so much unconditional love again. But time flew past us in a blink of an eye, and I told myself to be thankful.

20th of August. Today, I woke up extra early because I was going for a road trip to Penang island with the family over the weekend. My father's car was loaded with food, more food and a huge keyboard for my sister who's now living and working on the island. Sitting in the car with my little brother, I looked out of the window and started to think for my future. The future could be filled with different possibilities and it's unpredictable, and I thought if I plan too much ahead it might be ended up with only disappointment. Hence, I gave up and went to sleep. It was drizzling that day, I reached my destination around 12 noon and had a brief lunch at the temple, where my sister was volunteering at. I noticed something different about her, she was doing very well in both her working and social life, at some point I thought she was glowing.

21st of August. Last night, my sister brought the family out for dinner at Healy Mac's in Straits Quay. She treated the family a meal with her first monthly salary just like promised. After a satisfying meal, we decided to have a walk at the flea market by the seaside. The sea breeze was comforting and it was a perfect combination with a gentle smell of salt. It was just the right moment.

27th of August. I spent my second weekend here on the island. I was emotional over the week, many complications were bothering me and I couldn't find the light to the problems. At night, I talked to my mother on the balcony and it made me wonder when was the last time I had such heart-to-heart talk to her. I came to the realisation that it's been a year, I haven't had a pillow talk with my mother for a long time, and I certainly won't be spending most of my time with them in the coming year. If I were to stay and work in England, how much time do I have in each year to spend with them? I looked at my mother and gasped in disbelief.

10th of September. I was grumpy and sad in the past few days. I don't know how to explain, it was a mixture of complicated feelings that I would call it a pre-departure syndrome. I lost cravings for food and all I wanted was to spend time with those who matter to me, let it be any time or anywhere. Today, my sister drove home to spend the last weekend with me before I leave to England again. I was really glad she came back because feeling complete was all I needed. I spent a whole day out with them, we had lunch, then dinner and supper. I was really happy, and deep down I was truly grateful for what I have.

11th of September. The day had finally arrived. I couldn't believe time flew past us like the flash of lightning. Many things were left undone and many words were left unsaid. I was going to leave my comfort zone, a perfect zone where I could just be myself, a place where I could put down my mask. At the airport once again, my heart was sore, but I pretended to be tough.

I will love them always and forever.

Where am I heading to?

2011-09-23T18:46:00.000-07:00

I'm standing on the cross road once again, not knowing which path to choose, and not knowing what's best for me. At times like this, I always hope for someone to make a good decision for me. Many people gave me different opinions, and every one of us looks at life from a different angle. So right now I learn to make my own decision, I can no longer depend on other people's decision because this is my life, and I have to live my own life.

Standing on the cross road, looking at the different pathways that lie ahead of me, I'm lost. Questions and more questions are lifted up to the surface, who? what? when? where? how?? The overwhelming number of questions is simply too much for me to take, I can't breathe. I hate myself when I'm indecisive and pessimistic. I was a naive and happy-go-lucky person. But things have changed, I haven't been acting like myself for some time now, I get emotional quickly and tend to avoid putting trust on other people. All lies, sometimes even unintentional lies are slowly killing away the 100% trust that I used to put in them. Therefore, I think twice before believing a person, and I'm never gonna be the same again...

It's time.

Living life to the fullest

2011-08-11T09:28:00.000-07:00

Slow Dance

Have you ever watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down,

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short,

The music won't last.

Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask how are you?

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done,

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head?

You'd better slow down,

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short,

The music won't last.

Ever told your child

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die?

Cause you never had time

To call and say 'Hi'?

You'd better slow down,

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short,

The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere,

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like unopened gift thrown away.

Life is not a race,

Do take it slower.

Hear the music,

Before the song is over.

This beautiful poem was written by a special girl who will soon leave this world due to cancer. She has only six months left. She'll never make it to prom, graduate from high school, or get married and have a family of her own. But she wrote this poem, simply just to deliver a simple message to us, that is to 'live life to the fullest, slow down'.

I find this really meaningful and I hope to share her poem here with all my friends and everyone around me. The poem's right, life is not a race, slow down and see the world, you will learn something new that you never knew existed. The key word is appreciate.

When dream comes true

2011-07-21T13:36:00.000-07:00

I never thought dreams come true, but now.. I have a bigger dream, and it's a little secret =)

Can we smile like we used to smile?

2011-04-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

Some people develop negative ways of thinking and a phobia as a result of their past experiences. As time goes by and people grow up, we learn that many things do not happen according to our wishes. We moan, we cry and in pain, we started to doubt the God. Why? Why choose me? Does she deserve that kind of treatment? Are you blinded? Sometimes, it could be very harsh and heartbreaking.

As I was flipping through the old pictures of me and my friends, I noticed the change in the way we smile. From the second we met in Malaysia until now in England, it has almost been 3 years. 3 years is definitely not a short time, many things have happened in our daily lives and without realizing, we have also changed accordingly, and this process is called growing up.

I believe at some point in life when we feel almost contented and happy, something will be taken away from us, it could be something small but sometimes it could be so significant that the lost can leave a deep and permanent scar. And with the scar, we change. Sometimes when things happened, there is no turning back and our smiles can never be the same again.

This growing process plays a big part in life; the more we see, the more we learn about the reality of life. It's not as simple as we thought it should be. However, I believe that everything happens for a reason and we should take problems and obstacles in life as God's ways to make us more mature and smarter to be life survivors.

Lastly and most importantly, be grateful. =)

21 years ago...

2011-04-15T11:42:00.000-07:00

When I was still a little pea, learning how to cut a cake, blow a candle and make a wish.

At times I hope to never grow up, because I don't want to be disappointed again and again as the reality crushes my small little dreams into a million pieces.

I hope to never grow old, because I'm so afraid to see them get older day after day.

However, when the reality steps in... I know.

I miss you, and sorry.

Love the earth

2011-04-12T16:40:00.000-07:00

Love me by Yiruma

Enjoy and happy Easter =)

2012?

2011-04-12T16:17:00.000-07:00

"The fossil record shows dinosaurs dominated the land for around 150 million years. Species of dinosaur came and went, but at the end of this time there were many highly successful groups distributed widely around the world. Quite suddenly, 65 million years ago, all traces of dinosaurs disappear from the fossil record. Many other species of animals on land, sea and air vanished at the same time."

-Extracted from the Natural History Museum, London

Million of years ago, a massive meteorite struck the earth, followed by a series of terrible earthquakes, Tsunami and volcanic eruptions. Dinosaurs and many other animal species were wiped out and vanished from the earth forever. I couldn't help but wonder, if the prediction about 2012 is true, if the history may reoccur and turn the mankind into nothing but a grain of sand in the immensity of space...

I wonder if...

Watch this!

2011-03-31T11:04:00.000-07:00

It has cost me a litre of tears T.T

YIRUMA - Do you?

2011-03-27T02:02:00.000-07:00

YIRUMA

2011-03-27T01:30:00.000-07:00

His compositions are filled with beautiful elements of life and most of his inspirations came from the nature. I wonder if he's an angel because he's gifted with such a wonderful talent. He was born in South Korea, raised in England since the age of 11 and graduated from Kings College of London. His music is a healer, and that through him how many souls are saved in the world? Yes, he is an angel from the heaven. =)

The Spicy Peacocks

2011-02-20T12:14:00.000-08:00

If you have nothing to do on Tuesday night, Feb 22nd, come to Portland building and be ready to be overwhelmed!

See you guys there!

=P

Valentine's Day Surprise

2011-02-17T23:41:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day is a special day for the couples to celebrate their relationship, but to me it isn't just a day for lovers, it's also for us to express feelings that are hard to say aloud to those who matter most...

I wasn't expecting anything on Valentine's, because to me it's just going to be like any other day. As usual, I spent a whole, long day from 9 to 6 in the medical school and library, at night I went out for dinner with my girlfriends, partly to satisfy my deep craving for Unagi Don, and partly to just have fun after a long, tiring day at school! The dinner was totally random and unplanned but I liked it, the companions, the jokes, the fun and the awkward of sitting in the middle of love birds! =P

The surprise came in when I finally arrived home around 10 at night, at first I caught a pleasant scent of lavender, which then drew my attention to the maroon gifts that were nicely arranged on the table! I was so surprised and the 2 monkeys who followed me back from dinner seemed to be even more excited than me! Although I'm still clueless about who the sender is, or where he's from, but I appreciate the effort nonetheless, thank you!

Anyway, the beautiful flowers have found new home!

到不了

2011-01-05T17:26:00.000-08:00

always sisters, always friends

2011-01-03T17:24:00.000-08:00

Thanks for being my guardian angel, it looks like I need to stick real close by your side for the rest of my life. =p

Have a safe journey back home

feel like I'm home again

2011-01-03T16:44:00.000-08:00

nothing beats a house full of people you love because the love of a family is life's greatest blessing, happy new year =)

tolerance

2010-12-29T08:25:00.001-08:00

Why are some people so selfish? They never think for others and they will never admit that they are selfish. They always place their own needs above the needs of others, always. I was so angry but I took a step back cuz I didn't want to get involved in a quarrel. Quarreling hurts and I know it best. Siao Han.. Siao Han, take a deep deep breathe, it's no big deal right?

"If I can endure for this moment,
whatever is happening to me.
No matter how heavy my heart,
or how dark the moment may be.
If I can but keep on believing,
what I know in my heart to be true.
Then darkness will fade into morning,
and with this dawn a new day, too."

- Bobi

Wasted my choc because of this. ='(

The winter solstice this year

2010-12-21T17:20:00.000-08:00

Last year, my brother Sky and I made glutinous rice balls together, I remember laughter, lots and lots of laughter and fun...

Glutinous rice balls or commonly known as tang yuen is endowed with the meaning of reunion, harmony and happiness. During the night of winter solstice, my family members would usually sit together to taste the colourful and appealing tang yuen, we would have a little family chit chat in the garden until midnight.

Today, this particular special day reminds me now that I'm so faraway from home, I do not have a taste of momcooked tang yuen nor a warm family chit chat session under the full moon, however, I am so thankful to be sent here because I know that I'm the luckiest person on earth and there is nothing more I could possibly ask for. I need to be strong now and stop complaining like before because it wasn't easy for my family to send me here, it was definitely a whole lot of hard work and time. All I want to say to my dearly family members today, is thank you. Thank you for sacrificing much of your lives to send me here, to fill me in with more knowledge and skills; coming to UK is indeed an eye opener. I must learn how to endure and cope at times of difficulty, daddy if you can do it, I can do it too. I love you guys. =)

Happy winter solstice!

For you, Jamie

2010-12-16T07:16:00.000-08:00

Happy 21st birthday monkey! I've known you for almost 10 years, which means I've spent nearly half of my life knowing you but nothing could be quite so wonderful as knowing someone so truly special like you, Jamie. =)

I'm glad to see you happy and smiling again. =)

Last year at this time, I set up a candlelight lunch for you at my place, but this year we are both separated by a thousand miles and 8 hours difference in time. Although we can only see each other on a computer screen, but it doesn't matter cus I know that we are still the best friends forever, beyond distance, and beyond time. =)

It is your 21st, your big day! I gave you a video call and decided to play you a song, a song that we both knew - "River Flows in You"... I'm glad you liked it but when I saw you cry, I don't know why I felt like crying too. And now... here's your big birthday bear hug! Happy birthday! Have a blast and may all the years ahead be filled with bottomless happiness and blessings.

Cheers. =)

Two years back, I wrote something similar on your 19th birthday and I can't believe how fast time passes by, because it just seems like yesterday!

Memories in a song

2010-12-15T14:22:00.000-08:00

Do you believe that certain songs can bring back memories from the past? There are songs that can make you stop whatever you're doing and remember the first time you ever heard it. Today, I heard that song again... I can't remember when was the last time I listened to it, but it was definitely quite some time ago. The song is so calm, soothing and relaxing, I closed my eyes and I saw bits and pieces of my own past, and the feelings came rushing back.

Life is all about making choices, my dad used to say, "you choose your own destiny" and I have never doubted his words. I have made so many choices in my life, and each of 'em defines my future and destiny. What I am today is the consequences of all the choices and decisions that I've made so far in my life. I'm happy and contented, but sometimes I just can't help but wonder whether making a different choice would make a significant difference to myself. Even though what's done is already done and there is no way turning back, at some point I wish I could still go back to the past to fix imperfections and take away the memories that aren't supposed to be there.

Maybe by then, I won't feel the same for this song anymore.

So comforting and consoling...

2010-12-12T12:43:00.000-08:00

There's nothing quite so wonderful as a cup of hot Milo in the middle of the night, when you have a deadline to catch and a complicated issue to think of.

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...

2010-12-01T12:02:00.000-08:00

Snow makes everything so beautiful and pure

Homesickness

2010-11-25T02:54:00.000-08:00

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Autumn leaves, winter comes

2010-11-20T09:31:00.001-08:00

Foggy mornings in autumn bring a very mild hint of chilliness,
The cool breeze sweeps over my body as if whispering in my ears...
That as autumn leaves, winter comes,
When I see the golden leaves swirling crazily to the ground,
I know that they are just trying to remind us that the year is ending,
Holding on with memories that are slowly fading away...
And love that isn't love,
It is time to put an end to it,
It's over and I get up and move on.

Tears of Autumn

2010-11-17T12:50:00.000-08:00

"If we're not meant to be, I'll let these tears in autumn fall..."

Am I aware of that???

2010-11-03T15:52:00.000-07:00

“20岁以前，妈妈每天都能看到我们，而现在我们大多已经半年没有回过家了。如果。现在我们的妈妈大多40-60岁。我想如果可以活100岁，那么还有 40-60年。我们半年回家看她一次，我们这一生，妈妈这一生，就只有80-120次机会见面了……每次数学考试前，我总会祈祷我不要算错，只有这道题，我希望我是算错的，真的” 但也许就是答案。我们一厢情愿地忙碌着自己的事情，以为母亲就在那里，好好的，并不需要我们的在意，但是，在我们和她分别的那些间隙里面，她却在慢慢地老去，关于她变老的事实，我们总是在后来才猛然察觉。在这过程中，她一直还在默默地为家庭付出着，又默默地承受着许多我们不知道的苦痛，也默默地等待着我们的关爱。其实，她一直很需要我们。下面这些事情看来微不足道，但都能做到的也许寥寥无几。在这个世界上，没有什么比妈妈给我们的母爱更赤诚，所以，也没有什么比孝敬母亲更加地不容等待。 1、每周：不管身在何方，每周给妈妈电话，让她不要为你担忧。 2、每月：陪妈妈聊一次天，耐心分享她的喜怒哀乐，让她不会孤独。 3、每年：陪妈妈体检两次，关心她的健康，为她留住青春。 4、每年：生日和母亲节，送给妈妈一份有纪念意义的礼物。 5、两年：带妈妈去一次远途旅行，带给她美好回忆。 6、三年：努力工作学习，做出一些成绩，这是妈妈最想要的礼物。 7、五年：五年之后，因为有了你的关爱和努力，让妈妈看起来和现在一样年轻。 8、十年：十年之后，收集这十年里你为妈妈拍的照片，做一份独特影集，在照片旁边记录当时的场景，为妈妈留下时光的美丽。我们不是没有孝心，只是我们总是有太多太多理由，让我们推迟了对妈妈的关爱。而在这种推迟中，你可知，妈妈正在老去；告别了年轻，忙碌中年，在更年期蹉跎，最终成为一个真正的老人：白发、皱纹和颤抖的手。在这个过程中，她在承受着什么，尤其是更年期那个漫长的从青春步向衰老的过程中，她的身心都在发生着怎样的变化，这些，我们都不应该忽视!

UK = Ulu Kampung

2010-10-26T08:19:00.000-07:00

UK life is extremely boring, to the extend I cried last night because the internet was down. Can you see the kind of life I'm going through now? I swear I could have a nervous breakdown if the internet is not fixed anytime soon, but thank God I found a solution to my silly problem this morning, so it happened that my network adapter was unintentionally disabled, so I get to reconnect by enabling the adapter again, yes, by a simple click on the settings panel but I cried last night because of this stupid disabled adapter on my notebook! OH MY GOD I'm going CRAZY!

The weather is one thing, I really HATE it when the sky gets dark early! I DO MEAN IT. I HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT! My life ends at 5 every day you know why? Shops close at 5, sky gets completely dark, BLACK at 6 and the temperature drops to almost 1 degree Celsius at night, can you find a decent reason why I should go out after 5? One word says it all, LIFELESS.

I kinda missed those random outings with my friends back in UNMC, Shi Hao would say, 'get ready at 7!' and we would usually say, 'OKAY!' in a very cheerful and high-pitched tone, we always anticipated for those night-outs, especially after a long week of stress. He drove us out from the silent town of Semenyih, 3 cars I remember, his maroon car, Li Chen's silver Myvi and Butty's green Wira. We drove out all the way to Sungai Long, Broga, Kajang and even as far as Taman Cannaught night market for incredible food, sometimes to Cheras Selatan shopping mall for night movies, Mid Valley for birthday celebrations... I missed those days. We were happy people and we really did enjoy each other's companion didn't we? My point is, my wonderful life only started after 5 pm back in Malaysia but here, everything ends at 5. Haha, how pathetic, miserable.

Well, if I were to think on the brighter side, UK offers an excellent study environment with very minimum distractions. =X

Life Here

2010-10-19T05:42:00.000-07:00

It has been 1 month and 20 days since I came here, which means another 9 months and 13 days before I could return to the motherland with plenty of sun and a wide variety of good food. So, what I have been up to over the last month? I had a great time here, always busy exploring and surviving. =)

I guess many of you would like to have a quick glance around my little purple cozy room, so here it is!

So how's it? Nice and cozy huh? I kinda like it after awhile. =)
And then this is how my kitchen looks like...

Pretty cool?

Yea, this is basically the environment that I'm currently living in, Nottingham is a decent place to live, not a big city, not very happening, but it does offer a quiet and beautiful place to study. Oh, have I already mentioned about my housemates and friends during my freshers week? Without them, I might totally be lost, very very lost. Nothing could have been more pleasant than having someone close with in a strange land so faraway from home. So I appreciate, sincerely. =)

House 94 is my second family. We cook together and spend almost every moment together. We even fell sick at the same time!

So, this is one of my housemates, she's Chia Yin, I call her my butty. =P Looks like she was holding her favourite Nutella spread and Warburton's white sliced bread.

Next, Novell the Pink who lives in the big room downstairs... She's got PINK room, PINK towel, PINK mug and PINK pyjama pants!

Lastly, my sister, Stacia who shares the same room with me. She's going to stay with me for the next 2 months before she goes back to Malaysia in January for CNY. *envious*

AND

The rest of them. =)

We celebrated mid-autumn festival together one night under the full moon, we had potluck and a bottle of whiskey. Why do we actually bother celebrating a traditional chinese festival in the UK? For fun? No. It was simply because we missed home. We all missed home and celebrating makes us feel like we're home. You know, when people gather around a table, they feast and talk about anything at all without feeling a lil bit of awkward. It makes me feel like we're a family and we're actually not so alone. =)

Over the month, I've also visited 2 places outside Nottingham, first to Chatsworth in Derbyshire and then to Brighton in East Sussex with the Travel Soc. I had fun! UK is such a beautiful place, it has the most stunning view of the countryside here. Seriously. Some people might have already received the postcard I sent out, I hope for every place I visit, I send out a postcard so that I can share my awesome experience with the people that matters to me.

I guess that's it for now, I'm going to end this post with a few more lovely pictures from the trips. Enjoy!

Homesick

2010-09-15T12:46:00.000-07:00

Mummy, I miss you. I just feel like snuggling under my blanket with a cup of hot milo at this horribly awful moment. I want to be home right now. Can someone please send me home? I never knew it could be so difficult, I never knew. Have I made the wrong decision or have I changed? I need an answer.

Just something to share

2010-09-11T03:07:00.000-07:00

A bell is not a bell until someone rings it,
A song is not a song until someone sings it.
Love wasn't put in the heart to stay,
For love isn't love 'til you give it away.

A Thousand Miles Away

2010-09-11T01:50:00.001-07:00

Finally...

I left home. It was dreadful to leave my own country and family.. and him, of course. I thought I was going to cry but I didn't, I didn't allow myself to cry because I know that if I cry, everyone else will.

13 hours of flight journey was a total disaster, I arrived in London with an upset stomach and ended up running to the toilet a few times to vomit. I was freezing in the London airport while waiting for a coach to Nottingham, it was so cold I had to wear gloves when other Caucasians were wearing summer shorts and singlet??? Yes, I looked like an alien! The few days after in Nottingham weren't as pleasant as what I've imagined, I had acute diarrhea for 3 days continuously followed by an oral gum infection. My senior brought me to a dentist on the next day after I got infected but rejected twice for a walk-in just because I wasn't registered with their health service. I was like hello? Can't you see that I'm in pain? My right cheek was obviously swollen and there was a pus growing on my gum, it was awfully painful but they still refused to see me and insisted on making an appointment. Thankfully, it got much better after that before it was finally my turn to go for my appointment a few days later. I entered the clinic for barely a minute and I got charged 16.50 pounds and another 7.20 pounds for my Amoxicillin prescription. GREAT.

Other than the not-so-cool part of the days here, my placement at Boots pharmacy was good. I learned quite a number of things and it was definitely a very good experience and exposure to the whole pharmacy system here, it's just different. Every day since the first day of my placement, I had to walk 30 minutes to reach my pharmacy, smart ass like me thought it would be cool and glamorous to walk in Clarks heels to work but I ended up walking back home like a disabled person. So I failed and for the rest of the days I was in flats. =.="

After placement period, I spent almost every day shopping in the city centre for groceries and any necessary things for the house. Primark, Tesco, Argos, Wilkinson, Marks and Spencer, Ikea.. these are the few places to get cheap and moderate quality goods.

Anyway, I will keep my blog updated very soon. Cheers.

Goodnight.

All The Things You Never Knew - Wang Lee Hom

2010-08-18T07:05:00.000-07:00

I love his voice and I'm here to share it! =)

11 more days...

2010-08-18T01:27:00.000-07:00

before I leave to the United Kingdom. What can I say? It's just a mixture of feelings. All I can do right now is to spend more time with those who matter. This is when I realised I'm one of the happiest person on earth because I am showered with so much unconditional love here, in this warm country of mine. I always hated departure, I hated the feeling of separation and I hated to be thousand miles away from home.

One night, my mum said words that struck me like iceberg. She said to me while looking at my old photographs, "Mei mei, look at how time flies, you're all grown up. Look, now you're right beside me where I can see you and touch you, but very soon I will be sitting alone here in this room." My heart was pinched and stabbed, I buried my head in my pillow and cried secretly that night. This is the reality that I can never willing to accept. As I witnessed my parents age with time and looking at the wrinkles at the corner of those tired eyes made my heart sore, those tired eyes that have been watching after me for 21 years and because of them, I am who I am today. I'm not a good daughter, I just wish I could do something in return, I just wish I could stop breaking their hearts.

I shipped two big parcels to myself and 2 to 3 months later, I will be receiving them myself on the other part of the world. =) Can I see what future lies ahead? No one has the right to say about the future so, just have faith.

When I Look At You

2010-08-06T07:13:00.000-07:00

Everybody needs inspiration

Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
'Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need, every breath that I breathe
Don't you know, you're beautiful

Yeah, yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you I look at you

Yeah, yeah, oh, oh
You appear just like a dream to me

A Mystery of Myself

2010-07-29T06:10:00.001-07:00

Have you ever experienced the feeling of emptiness when it creeps all over your cells and nerves? Sometimes I just feel so lost, like floating half way up in the air without any direction. I may be the one who laughs and smiles most of the time but have you ever wondered if I was really happy on the inside? For all this while, I have been keeping things to myself and I swear that the feeling was nauseating. I wanted to let out my emotions but every time I try, I feel like the people around me are just gonna get hurt so I bottle them up and push them down even further, until finally when I was alone, everything started to pour out at once. How I wished I don't have to do this alone anymore, all I need is a pair of ears to listen and a shoulder to lean on.

Our secret recipe

2010-07-25T00:16:00.000-07:00

15/06/2010

One fine day, the two best friends have decided to bake fresh egg tarts! Neither of us have baked before but the sillies just wanted to be adventurous, we thought as long as we don't blow up the kitchen, it should be fine.

It was pretty simple actually, I used only common ingredients, such as sugar, eggs, flour and butter. I thought the recipe was straight forward, no doubt that I will bake good tarts for the first time. But... it's always easier said than done. Baking needs practice. *The tarts were awful*

After all, we still had a great time in the kitchen. I missed you.

Meet Shane and Scott

2010-06-27T19:27:00.000-07:00

My little cousins, Scott, 4 years old on the left and Shane, 6 years old on the right. They were playing Plants Vs Zombies on my lil bro's computer.

Look at what 2 mighty heroes can do?

They can afford to break my bro's computer desk! Can you believe it? I was completely shocked when the table collapsed with a loud thud and the father came rushing upstairs in less than a second, eyes widened.

LOL!

I'm sorry bro, I know you were speechless, I was speechless too, but looking at their angel faces made my heart melt. =P Ask daddy to get a new one for you. Bluek... hehe...

Sun Paradise - Redang

2010-06-21T21:27:00.000-07:00

A trip to the island has always been a dream of mine. Even when I was little, I always wanted to go but never had a chance. Redang is undoubtedly an island of peace and tranquility. The sea is beautifully painted in different tones of blue and green, just like the palette of the most talented painters. The clear blue sky and the dazzling clean, powdery white sandy beach are flawless. The horizon is clearly defined and the water sparkles under the golden vertical sun like diamonds!

The arrival at Redang was an absolute shock because no words or photographs were sufficient enough to describe the true beauty of the island. I was so amazed by the scenery and bewitched by the comfort that was offered. I wished to never leave this earthly heaven. =)

30 May 2010 is a date to be remembered because it was the day when my dream came true, the day I left my footprints in the sand of this heavenly paradise. =)

Looking at the horizon makes me think of the few possibilities in life. No matter how far a person can go, the horizon is still way beyond you, it doesn't seem to have an end.

Friends are the colours of my life and the trip wouldn't be perfect without them.

The crystal turquoise sea is so beautiful and it never failed to seduce my soul. How I wished I could stay on the island forever, far away from the hustle and bustle of city life, where life can be lived one day at a time.

3 days and 2 nights at Redang Beach Resort was a wonderful one. With them, everything was made perfect. =)

Block J! That's where we stayed.... As you can see, it was a nice place to stay, very clean and well maintained.

Just look at the shades of turquoise, it makes you fall in love.

A beach soccer field.

Without wasting any time, we changed into pario before immersing in the comfort of gentle sea breeze.

Blue. Purple. Red. Orange. As colourful as a rainbow!

Aside from the stunning view of the ocean, the sand was as soft as silk.

A jumping scene, but this time with our initials carved in the sand.

Casey. Elise. Novell. Yee.

This picture has a title of "A Broken Heart".

Idea by me. Photography by Lim Shi Hao. =P

Once in awhile, lazying on an island with a group of good friends is not a bad idea. How many of us actually have a chance to escape the hustle and bustle of everyday life, and come to a place this far from the city without irritating sound of a car honking on the road? This is the time when people can stop rushing through the day and cherish each and every moment, cuz that's the true meaning of life. What's the point of working day and night, striving for a position? In the end, you just got nothing.

Friendship is about holding each other, although not be able to think of anything to say and still be comfortable in the silence.

Snorkeling was a great experience. We had three snorkeling trips in total. One on the first day and another two on the second day.

After a short compulsory briefing, we equipped ourselves with snorkel masks and life jackets. We also rented a camera to capture underwater photographs.

While waiting for the next snorkeling destination, I loved to sit down on the boat and just admire the sparkling sea water.

Swimming with the fishes of different sizes, colours and species was unbelievable! I felt so unreal in the underwater world, like I was one of them! The water was warm and I could feel the water sliding over my shoulders and body... It was totally sensual!

It was simply amazing to swim in a world of fishes, all darting in every direction. As I swam along, I was surprised that the fishes didn't shy away... I looked to my right, there were fishes... I looked to the left, there were fishes... I looked behind and below... my gosh, I was surrounded! They seemed to enjoy the company, almost like waiting for me to swim along with them!

Casey was afraid of the fishes, the more she was afraid, the more we wanted to make fun of her by throwing pieces of bread to wherever she was. Kekekeke... =P As usual, Casey would scream so loud, followed by a series of helpless laughter... Awww... such a happy moment!

*Under the Sea playing in the background*

The fish was like, "Hey miss, never seen a fish before? What's with the camera?"

Who said fishes don't gossip? Of course they do! ><

Spot the orange ball we were holding and try to guess?

Bingo! It was a starfish!

Khye was our snorkeling instructor, well to be honest, one first look at him, I thought he was an Indonesian. He's a Chinese anyway, he was the one who pinched my nose and Novell's cheek for no reason and said 你好可爱哟！=.="... SWT to the max!!!

He brought us everywhere to show us all sorts of living things under the sea. It was so amazing but with no luck, we didn't get to catch a glimpse of sea turtle and stingray. Snorkeling was exhausting, Khye was kind enough to offer us his arm to hook on and follow him anywhere, but we complained of being tired instead despite he was the only one swimming! XD

After an hour plus of snorkeling under the hot sun, we were practically half-cooked! Although Khye warned us in the briefing to avoid using sunscreen because it is harmful to the underwater flora and fauna, we still insisted to apply at least a thin layer over the body. BUT... Miss Novell Ng Kah Yaeng kept on applying one layer over another like nobody's business until she looked absolutely white! LOL. And then Kai Yee was saying if the fishes die and come out in the newspaper headline in the next morning, we know who's the culprit! Hahahahahaha!

The water was crystal clear! So clear to the extent you can see corals and fishes from the surface.

The shape of snorkel mask was clearly printed on our faces after long hours of snorkeling, but it seemed like Casey's was the most obvious one. Hrmm...

I wonder why the grandpa snorkeled with his straw hat. Is the straw hat that important?

The corals are pretty... Don't you think so? This is the place where many nemo fishes could be seen. I witnessed a few very adorable ones! But sad to say, we have no pictures cuz someone didn't know how nemo fishes look like. He was asking is this the one? the blue one no? Yellow? No? This? =.=" Okkk.... Shi Hao, I hope you already know by now and please don't tell me sleeping beauty and the seven dwarfs anymore ok? Hahaha...

The last snorkeling spot was very shallow, the instructor warned us to be careful or else they would amputate (they said cut) our legs instead of giving us first aid treatment. LOL. However, look at us? I kicked on the corals a few times and got my both legs injured, a fine stone was trapped in my wound and I remembered shouting in pain when Li Chen was trying to dig it out with her fingers.

Awww poor slave. With only 2 bottle caps and a plastic bottle, he was buried and bullied. =P

This is a good picture. Moments captured, life remembered. =)

I saw vegetarian baby sharks here. You can catch a better view in the early morning.

Five whales lying on the shore!

What is more comfortable than lying on a hammock after a tiring day out? What is more relaxing than closing your eyes and listen to the gentle sound of waves?

After being kept in the cupboard for more than five years, my kite finally had a chance to fly up high in the sky. To be honest, I never fly a kite before in my entire life. I bought it few years back from Port Dickson and always didn't have a chance to play.

Novell is very good in flying a kite, thanks to her, my kite was flying higher than a Malaysia flag! *Proud*

At night, we were too reluctant to sleep. We had a picnic under the stars. As we lay down on the beach, we had a heart to heart talk and this makes our friendship grow even more with the passing time.

As we talked, we witnessed shooting stars cutting through the sky of twinkle twinkle little stars, although I saw only one, but one is already enough. =) May your every wish be granted.

At first glance, you may think, wow it was a beautiful sunrise but no o... it was a moonrise! It was incredible to witness a moon rising up from the earth's horizon, turning from red to orange and finally to bright yellow. I was thrilled when I saw this and I find no words to describe the experience I had myself. It was absolutely unforgettable.

Somtimes, at a moment like this, all I needed was just silence.

Look at what I've got here? Baby sea turtle! So cute isn't it?

Although it was just a short trip, but it was exhilarating and fun! I've seen and learned so many beautiful things that I never knew existed! The earth is gorgeous and amazing and I am so aware of the importance of loving the earth. =)

Save the earth. Save the planet.

Cut for a change!

2010-06-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

Sun Paradise - Langkawi

2010-06-14T23:05:00.000-07:00

Langkawi, also known as the jewel of Kedah, is another beautiful paradise where you can see lush green paddy fields below the velvet blue sky. The weather was pretty warm.

With the feelings of excitement, we rented a Wira to explore the little island. We bought some buns from Bread Story before we hopped into the car and the smell was simply irresistible to the five hungry wolves who didn't have their breakfast in the morning. Before we finally started our adventure, we realised the petrol wasn't refilled for us, it was almost an empty tank =.=... Can you believe it? Of course, smart people like us came up with a brilliant strategy, that is we decided to pump the petrol just sufficient for a day and return the car with an empty tank as well! Kekeke...

We were given a map before we got ourselves moving again, the first stop was at Padang Matsirat, where the Langkawi International Airport is now located. Nothing much really, this place was originally a series of paddy fields which were set on fire by the villagers when they were attacked by the Siamese in year 1821, soon after Mahsuri's death, and resulted in the Field of Burnt Rice nearby. The villagers believed that the incident was a curse of Mahsuri because soon after the fields were burnt in order to starve the invading soldiers, the villagers also died from starvation. =S.

I believe most of you already know, Langkawi is well-known for its legends and folk tales, but the best-known story was about princess Mahsuri and her curse on the island hundreds of years ago. Mahsuri was known as the most beautiful and elegant woman in Langkawi during the era. Because of her extraordinary beauty, envy and jealousy arose naturally... until one day, she was accused of having an affair with a man when her husband, the son of the chief of Langkawi was away to fight in a war. Despite her repeated protests that she was innocent, Mahsuri was executed. During the execution, white blood gushed from her wound as she uttered a curse on Langkawi just before she died.

"There shall be no peace and prosperity on this island for a period of seven generations."

And the curse did come true.

We also visited the Tomb of Mahsuri. *pictures at the end*

One thing that I would like to comment about Langkawi cows, they are STRONGER because we witnessed a fat and juicy cow jumping across a high fence!

After visiting Padang Matsirat, we headed to the Langkawi Underwater World. This place was actually recommended by the person who rented the car to us, we also bought the entrance tickets from them cuz they sell at cheaper prices. Here are some lovely pictures in the underwater world. ^^

The animals were fascinating, especially the sea turtles and of course the penguins. I didn't know what the turtles were doing until I was told by a friend, that they were mating! Besides, do you know that jellyfishes are made of more than 95% water with no brain, blood and nervous system?

After 'living' in the cold underwater world for a couple of hours, we went pario shopping under the hot sun at the roadside stores just opposite the underwater world. The burning hot sun was so horrible that it could simply cook a person alive! My body couldn't cope any longer as I started to feel feverish and had a body ache and a bad sore throat. However, one tablet of Panadol saved all the problems and I was able to continue shopping under the sun again! =P

All of us got ourselves a pario in different colours. All satisfied, we continued our adventure to the next stop, the Langkawi cable car...

The cable car took us up to Mount Mat Cincang, 705 meter above sea level which is the second highest peak in Langkawi. We took the first cable car and got down at the first station to take some amazing pictures at the observation deck before we grabbed another cable car up further. Almost to the peak, we had to climb a set of staircases and cut through a thin forest. And then, there was a steel bridge suspended across Mount Mat Cincang and a neighbouring mountain, where magnificent and breathtaking view of the surrounding horizon could be seen.

Walking across the steel bridge was an amazing experience, Chia Yin who's afraid of height was holding to someone so tightly and refused to let go until she's safe and sound on the ground. XD The cold, windy breeze and the extraordinary beauty of the island's landscape was fantastic!

When we finally reached the peak, we shouted, screamed and yelled to the surrounding mountains. The feeling was never so comfortable before. =)

"We're leaving to UK soon!"

Next, we headed to the black sand beach! I believe a picture is worth a thousand words, see below!

After witnessing a beautiful sunset at the beach, we headed to Wonderland seafood restaurant in town for dinner and Langkawi parade to purchase duty free items, mostly chocolates, a bottle of ice wine and some beers.

Ice wine is slightly sweeter than any normal wine, but it's pretty nice. Shi Hao, supposing a bartender didn't even know how to open the bottle, he grabbed a penknife from his bag and started working on it. After a few minutes, he was STILL struggling at the corner... Novell couldn't stand it no more, she offered to help at last and guess what? She just screwed off the cap with a simple twist! =.="

Lesson of the story. Life is simple, don't think complicated.

Hahahahahaha....

The only entertainment in the hotel room was the TV. We loved to watch Bao Qing Tian while taking turns to shower. Someone was asking me, do you guys have nothing else better to do? =P

On the next morning, we pumped another RM5 petrol before heading to the Tomb of Mahsuri.

Eagle Square...

Although the trip was just a 2 days 1 night, but we already had enough fun under the sun! Like I said, I love us!

Upcoming: Redang

Stay tuned.

Sun Paradise - Penang

2010-06-08T08:17:00.000-07:00

Obviously I'm on a holiday now! Sorry for the uber late update... =P I'm no longer stressed up over exams, but rusting like mad at home, doing absolutely nothing. Heheh. I'm lovin' it!

Anyway, I had a splendid summer vacation on a few islands of Malaysia! It was an extremelly wonderful experience and I fell in love with the blue sky and turquoise sea. My friends, they never failed to put a smile on my face, we planned the trips together, all excited... we finally decided to visit 3 famous islands, Pulau Penang, Pulau Langkawi and Pulau Redang. We were thrilled with the idea of island hopping and just the thought of it could make me smile so wide. =)

It was on the 24th of May, 2010, we began our first journey to Penang... Like I said in facebook, when I say Penang, you will definitely think of food. But I have to say that Penang sure has much more to offer besides food. I believe there are many other beautiful places yet to be explored, but the one I saw was already perfect, at least for me. *pictures below*

It was a nice place, far from the noisy and polluted city. There was a small abandoned fisherman's cabin overlooking gorgeous blue waters and the glittering sky. I would love to spend my whole evening sitting down on a perfect spot in the cabin and just listen to the water gently lapping against the shore, alone with my own thoughts.

Alright, time to blog about food. To be honest, I'm not a fussy eater so I don't comment on food. However, here are some pictures to make you drool! =P

'Ai Yu Bing' - Different from the one I had in KL, this one has added sea coconuts, nata de coco and longan. *thumbs up*

Tom Yam prawn *thumbs up*

Kuey Chap - Something special to me, it's pieces of kuey teow in duck soup. *thumbs up*

Penang Laksa *thumbs up*

Cendol - My favourite *thumbs up*

Wantan mee *thumbs up*

Oyster omelet *thumbs up*

Lala *thumbs up*

Are you drooling already? Haha. I hope you are!

Besides, we've also visited several tourist attractions, such as Batu Ferringhi beach, Kek Lok Si and St. Anne's church. Of course, the trip would not be completed without at least one or two jokes and humors among the crazy bunch of bimbos and obviously the slave! =P Apparently, the slave has moved up one position to a maid and then now he's our daddy! We even drafted out a brief family tree while sitting in the car, waiting for the next stop for more food.... hahaha what to do? Daddy loved to feed his piglets. lol. We also taught him how he should treat his future girlfriend using the 50%, 40% and 10% breakdown, 50% of his time should be spent on us, 40% on his girlfriend and only 10% for himself. WAKAKAKAKA!!!! Too bad, we're evil! =P

Batu Ferringhi beach - Looking at the ocean is lonely, it reminds me of a song, 'Ocean Deep' by Cliff Richard.

Let us be young forever
BTW I dropped my pretty white hat into the sea soon after this shot. XD
Bimbo is a bimbo. TSK TSK TSK...

Kek Lok Si - A temple with amazing and appreciable architecture.

We boarded a night ferry from Penang island back to the hotel we stayed. I did a stupid mistake on the ferry, hence another laughing moment. =.=... As I needed to use the toilet urgently thanks to my ever so wise bladder, I rushed up and saw only male's toilet, female's on the other far end, duhh I was too lazy to run all the way to the other end of the ferry and plus the slave offered to sort of "jaga" the door for me, so I just opened the toilet door WIDE and tada I saw two men figures, aha! Backing me, for goodness sake... phew.. *flushed*

St. Anne's church - Very big, spacious and beautiful.

Basically, that's all... 4 days in Penang was a total blast. Good food, crazy companions, beautiful places and the turquoise and blue I adore most. We headed to Langkawi on the second day, 25th from Penang jetty and stayed at City Bayview hotel for a night before we returned to Penang again to continue our eating adventure. I love us!

Upcoming: Langkawi and Redang

Stay tuned!

Stressed

2010-05-07T22:06:00.000-07:00

I'm stressed. I need help. Anyone? I hate exams, why am I in this course? How did I end up in the pharmacy course? Omg... I've been memorizing drugs every day, my bro has to listen to my alien language every now and then... now that he even knows what's barbiturate and what the side effects are... ... ... =.= My brain is supersaturated with all different kinds of brain diseases, and I felt especially depressed when I study about depression. =(... I think I am having depression, I have no emotions these days and I show no interest to anything. Oh Lord, I need strength to continue, please help me.

On the first of May

2010-05-01T04:38:00.000-07:00

I think I had too much fun recently, which explains why I'm having difficulties paying full attention in my revision, but things are getting better now, I'm slowly adapting to the usual deadly lifestyle every day. I know I can do it. I just need to scream in the pillow for several more times. Cheers. =) Today is a good day, a good start of the new month, which means I'm one more month nearer to departure. 3 more months, and I'll be off to UK. I can't believe it myself, it's a mixed feelings tho... at one moment, I can't wait to be there, to experience a real campus life in Nottingham. =) But sometimes, I feel so reluctant to leave my family and friends here, I can't seem to step out of my own comfort zone. I don't like changes, especially when everything has settled down and when I'm having almost everything that I could ever ask for. But, Nottingham... you've got to wait for me because one day, I will be mentally and physically ready for you. XD

Anyway, I always wanted to blog more about my own life, writing down makes me remember many things better and when I read back my older posts, I remember who I was back then, I see changes in myself, and yea my blog has been neglected for quite awhile, it's looking dull and grey, time to add some colours to it. ^.^ I'll try to blog more as long as I remember, before the shadow of memories fade and disappear from my brain. Talking about brain, CNS is driving me crazy. =S I'll probably come back to write more next time. CNS is calling me. Arghh. Here's some nice pictures to share, taken with my baby Lumix LX3. I'm falling in love with my new camera, it's working so well with me. We make good partners. *loves*

Oh, have I told you how grateful I am to have great friends like them?

With a box of dequadin pastilles as an initiator, a series of addition reaction mechanisms were propagated, whether they were aldol or claisen's, a strong bond has been made and the reaction is irreversible. =)

Pictures taken at Marche, The Curve during Novell's 21st birthday celebration.

Heartbreaking videos

2010-04-30T06:12:00.000-07:00

Koreans have dramatic lives. =S

Because I'm a Girl - Kiss (love this song!)

Music is a visible thing

2010-04-25T23:01:00.000-07:00

It's really touching. ='(

A lil update from me

2010-04-20T15:05:00.000-07:00

I was supposed to go for another hiking trip this morning, but oh well one look to the sky says it all. The thunderstorm last night was crazy, few trees collapsed and my friend, Ieva was just 10 meters away from being struck by lightning. I slept too "early" on the night before due to caffeine and missed an hour of class in the morning. My biological clock has gone haywire. When is this gonna end, I feel like crap these days, I have so much of work due and exams are just in 3 weeks time. When I look at my own calender each day, I always tell myself, 'OH SHIT, I'm gonna fail, you stupid!' I guess I'm having the usual pre-examination syndrome again, and again like I said, when is this gonna end? Cuz I see no end of it. Anyway, it's Novell's birthday celebration tonight and we're planning to grab some drinks at The Library. I need unlimited bottles of Hoegaarden beer. Let's study at The Library? XD

Before I end this post, here is a picture to share =)
*music player updated*

Enlighten me, enlighten us.

Music cures

2010-04-19T07:36:00.000-07:00

Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life.
~ Berthold Auerbach

The Gift - Jim Brickman

2010-04-02T07:00:00.000-07:00

Winter snow is falling down
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on
Like a fairy tale come true

Sitting by the fire we made
You're the answer when i prayed
I would find someone
And baby I found you

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful every day
For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep
What I'd give if i could keep
Just this moment
If only time stood still

But the colors fade away
And the years will make us grey
But baby in my eyes
You'll still be beautiful

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful every day
For the gift

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
I can't find the words to say
That I'm thankful every day
For the gift

Friends

2010-04-01T03:49:00.000-07:00

"I count myself in nothing else so happy as in a soul rememb'ring my good friends."

- William Shakespeare-

Fragile

2010-03-25T05:33:00.001-07:00

I felt the sorrow when I was told. Life is as fragile as a piece of glass, it breaks. Broken pieces of glass cut so deeply you feel the pain and what's left behind is a scar. However, a scar makes one stronger. Dear Lord, please give her the strength and courage.

Two Is Better Than One

2010-03-13T07:35:00.000-08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
Cause everything you do
And words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And I am left with nothing

So maybe its true
That I cant live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
Cause when i close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

Then maybe its true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
I'm thinking two is better than one
(oh yeah)
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And i thought hey

Maybe it's true
That I cant live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
That I cant live without you
Cause maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I've figured out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one.

Tablets

2010-03-11T09:52:00.000-08:00

I'm supposed to be home or even chilling in a shopping mall right now. But instead I came back to the lab early this morning with my other group members to redo the entire experiment that went wrong last week. Urghhh... It wasn't our fault in the first place, it was the damn tabletting machine that wasted our efforts on powder granulation which took us hours to prepare. Thank goodness the machine didn't go wrong this time and we managed to get it done before noon. It was FAST and CLEAN! XD

I made my own tablets and capsules! *Proud* Anyway, my first batch of capsules didn't look pleasant at all, I think I could have failed manufacturing practice requirements cuz you can easily find hair and small black particles in each of the capsule!

Okay, let's see... I still have a journal to summarize and a dissertation to write. Poster? Oh my... time is running out. I shall get back to my report now.

HOT!

2010-03-09T02:49:00.000-08:00

Today is just another tiring day...

I'm tired and exhausted! The world is getting warmer and warmer, earthquakes are everywhere! What is wrong with the earth? I was baked in a car for God knows how long! The air conditioner wasn't functioning, fine! And then my "best friends" appeared. They're extra hardworking during festive seasons and especially under killing HOT sun! =.=... When we need them, they hide thousand miles away. When we don't need them, they stick to you like chewing gum, begging for bribe. Sigh. I'm so disappointed. This is RIDICULOUS.

All the best to you Malaysia.

Loved

2010-02-28T07:13:00.000-08:00

I'm happy. =)

The feeling was there and still is. It's amazing to think of how great things happen in one's life. I love the little chit chat with them this morning, enjoyed their companion last night. *loves*

Shopped at Bangsar yesterday with my girlfriends, we visited a number boutiques under sizzling hot sun, climbed up and down the stairs in heels and it almost killed us. After all, I got myself a little black dress! Now I need a pair of matching heels and accessories... XD Anyone?

It is the last day of cny, the moon is beautiful and attractive in the dark. But when the clock strikes 12, I shall wake up from my own sweet dream and get back to my piling work. I need to and I have to! I still can't believe how time flies, it all happened tremendously fast. Leaving to UK in 6 months time! O.o Why must I leave at the moment when I feel love growing and spreading around me? I'll miss my family and friends. Can any genius please invent a device that is able to pause time? Grrrrr.....

To a self-centered person

2010-02-24T19:10:00.001-08:00

Could you please leave me alone? You're not always correct, don't make anymore assumptions cuz you're just pissing me off. Every single word that you said is hurting me badly, you're not taking care of my feelings and you didn't even realise that, did you? I need a quiet time alone to know what's going on around us... I feel so unreal like I'm floating up in the air and not be able to touch the ground. Why must life be this complicated? How I wish at times humans can communicate like the Na'vi in Pandora without the need of verbal communication. All the thoughts can be felt and understood without having to go through so much.

Mutual understanding between two person is very important, something which I came to realise as I grow older day by day. A relationship is about building a bridge of trust, when the bridge collapse, it breaks the two apart. I hope to see changes.

Survived

2010-01-23T22:17:00.000-08:00

The blog is NOT dead YET!

Hello I'm back! Life has been extremely hectic! I was swamped with tons of workload and barely had time for a decent meal. There were a few times when I burst into tears, talked to ants and praying mantis in the toilet and I thought I was going crazy and insane. I actually survived throughout the 2 weeks alone in a typical four-walled room; stranded in there for hours and days without any sunlight and living organisms of the same kind. It felt like as if I was the only one left in the world.

I went through moments of frustration as I tripped over one obstacle after another before my exam period. I lost some parts of my report due to a technical mistake after so much of time and effort spent on it. It was still okay although I was very frus and depressed over it, I managed to redo everything in a night and made several copies after learning from the mistake. Great, then 2 days before my first paper which was also the due date for my report, my entire laptop vanished. Clever. The only thing that came across my mind was the report after having to realise that my room was in a big mess. My jaw just literally dropped before I started screaming for my report. Thankfully, I've saved it in a pendrive beforehand and I guess it wasn't attractive enough to that whoever bastard. If it wasn't because of the unintentional accident earlier, I wouldn't have taken extra precaution and I would have probably cried my intestines and liver out by then. Everything is fated to happen this way under God's arrangement. =) Looking on the brighter side, I'm getting a new laptop soon! But I gotta fork out my own pocket money to get a new camera. =S

Everything's gonna be fine. =D

BTW
CNY is just around the corner! But I haven't done anything yet! Thanks to ever so "perfect" exam schedule and time table. Can't wait to see my fellow relatives and friends!

Merry Christmas and a happy new year!

2009-12-24T19:37:00.000-08:00

~Snowman Greetings~

Mr. Snowman from Nottingham.

And this is from Aberdeen, Scotland. My sister's place. =)
She's just so crazy to play in a graveyard!

Merry Christmas peeps!

HOHOHO

Reunion @ Peppercorn

2009-12-23T23:28:00.000-08:00

Peppercorn is now open for breakfast and lunch only. AND...
Friends are back from the LA and Aussie!

We're here AGAIN after one and the half years.

=D

Happy Winter Solstice =)

2009-12-23T23:19:00.000-08:00

Something is BURNT!

2009-12-21T02:18:00.000-08:00

Have you ever eaten rice crackers? Hehe. I came out with a new dish yesterday by ACCIDENT. I call it "Fried Rice Keropok" and my dad gave me two thumbs! he finished the whole plate tho he looked a little constipated when he forced every spoonful into his mouth, plus he took half an hour to finish that plate. lol. I know what it means la kay, it means two thumbs down. I'm just self consoling can? Well actually, I was supposed to cook fried rice but the rice burnt. =.=... If you know what I mean. Thanks to my very BRILLIANT cooking skills, my dad had to consume carbon with me. =S

(I told my dad that I was going to try that again but sniff sniff... he gave me that huh-not-againnn look.)

BUT... today is a not-so-bad day! I cooked delicious green bean soup. ^^

Happy happy...

1 am

2009-12-19T08:16:00.000-08:00

It's December again. Sometimes I feel that I've lost track of time. After the whole day of revision, I'm finally lying down on my comfortable bed with my laptop on in the middle of the night. It feels great.

Scattered thoughts, disconnected fragments... pieces of my own story are being recalled. There's no way we can reverse the time, we can't go against fate so I'm looking forward for a better tomorrow. I'm only hoping for the simplest thing. =)

If only the five of us...

Merry Christmas~!

2009-12-18T10:07:00.000-08:00

Passion Fruit. I love.

2009-12-17T02:58:00.000-08:00

Celebrations

2009-12-08T01:31:00.000-08:00

October, November and December babies

Casey's 19th

My 20th

Kai Yee's 21st

Sue Wen's 20th

Shi Hao's 20th

Sports for Loners

2009-12-07T05:06:00.000-08:00

I had a good run today.

=)

Viva La Vida Night '09

2009-12-05T02:01:00.000-08:00

Here comes again the annual Cancer Awareness Campaign the Viva La Vida organised by our Pharmnotts on the 3rd of December!

UK mobility students with the sandwich boards.

My bubble tea stall outside the Great Hall.

Potassium Permanganate and Sunset Yellow XD

We tried almost all flavors desperately. Phobias. X bubble tea!

Lee Myung Eun and Kim Gahee. Korean performers.

Inspiration from the latest TVB series "Beyond the Realm of Conscience".
Awesome drama.

All in all, we had fun although we didn't get to watch any of the performances cuz our stall kept us busy the whole night. Making bubble tea is not that difficult after all but the dosage formulations are very important, too much powder or too much honey will make the drink undrinkable. We didn't even have time for dinner but some friends delivered free food to us, really have to thank them. Finally hard work does pay off, we earned! Not much but sufficient in overall to donate to the National Cancer Society. ^^

I'm feeling happy and contented. =D

Food Trip

2009-11-30T00:40:00.000-08:00

Food trip on Saturday, 28-11-2009

I woke up at 8.00 am. I practically jumped out of bed cuz Shi Hao would be picking me up at 8. Smart ass. I rushed to the washroom right away and did everything in uber high speed then the phone rang. Yeah, It was him. =.=... I gave up brushing my stubborn hair and threw everything into my handbag. What a "perfect" start to a wonderful and adventurous day ahead.

We picked up 2 other friends next and oh well I wasn't the worst after all. They woke up even later than I did! First stop of the day was Klang! We headed to Klang for their famous Bak Kut Teh! After that we drove all the way to The Curve, watched "New Moon" and had a light tea break at Paddington Pancake House. We ordered Treasure Box and the other one which I can't really remember the name anymore but this I must tell, the food was simply awesome! HEAVENLY! I have a sweet tooth you know, it runs in the family I guess. Desserts never failed to tempt me, very very sinful XD.

After celebrating KY's birthday at the pancake house with 6 sweet cupcakes with her lovely name on it, we decided to walk around Ikea, tried some meatballs and karipaps, window shopped at the street market and took loads of pictures with Christmas atmosphere in the air. It was pretty good and warm and I'm definitely going back there again to experience it once again. HOHOHO~ We finally left at about 7 pm and continued our journey next to Subang Jaya. It was a rather adventurous one and it took us nearly two hours cuz we took the wrong exit at first and had to drive pass Batu Cave and made a U turn back using Duke's highway. The back three were asleep for good or else they would probably make more noises. lol. We made it on time for the famous teochew porridge at 9 pm before it closes at 9.30 pm. Phew~ That was so close but at least we made it.

Last but not least, many thanks to Shi Hao for driving us around all this while. =)

Kindly click on the link below for some mouth-watering pictures:
http://serendipity-casey.blogspot.com/2009/11/now-see-difference.html

Pissed?

2009-11-25T23:39:00.000-08:00

My toilet mate is giving me a headache. Why can't she understand my situation?

I feel like screaming and yelling like a mad person.

But I think It is just a matter of time. I'll get used to it eventually. There is no need to create complications due to small matters.

I can do it.

Smile.

='(

2009-11-23T04:01:00.000-08:00

I really need to control myself. Please Siao Han please. Don't disappoint me again and again. Wake up, THINK THINK THINK, CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL. I know I can do it, but devils please go away. Leave me alone. ='(

I'm stressed.

Silence

2009-11-20T19:53:00.000-08:00

What goes around, comes around.
Many things do not turn out the way I wanted it to.
There's more to learn down the road.
More to take but much more to give.

I apologize for the silence.

Many misunderstandings have not been resolved,
assumptions made our situation worse.

Silence may be the best medicine.

Birthday Wishes

2009-11-16T01:30:00.000-08:00

I'm 20 years old, one more step into adulthood. Yupe, I'm no longer a teen and that makes me a year wiser. Someone said age is just a figure to measure how long we've been living in this world and for us to look back at what we've done in the past. Up to this point, I'm grateful to have given the chance to live up to this moment and that my life has always been so perfect with so much unselfish love in the air. I'm a lucky baby! I have everything that I could ever ask for, a family, friends, health and what more? So, I'm writing here to thank everyone who's part of my life especially to you, mum. Thank you! I love you for more than I can say.

My birthday this year was rather awesome! My adorable friends threw me a birthday celebration on the 12th which was 2 days earlier! They brought me to Chilis at Mid Valley after school and got me a handmade Garfield birthday card and a starfish necklace from Perlini's Silver that I simply adore. Dear friends, thanks for spending quality time with me although some of you were still recovering from atropine due to morning's lab work (double blind clinical trial). So, please allow me to pay a small token of appreciation to all of you. My birthday would never be so perfect without you guys. THANK YOU!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

Kai Ng, not forgetting you babe! thank you for the lovely card that came all the way from the US and to you Steph, I think you should really update your blog cuz it's been a year! It's my birthday again! Anyway, I'm starting to get obsessed with glow-in-the-dark panties, if you know what I mean. *wink* Last but not least, to those who've left beautiful wishes on the wall or in my inbox, I've read each and every one of them cuz I know they were written with a heart, a sincere heart.

I have a smile on my face throughout the whole day. Money can't buy happiness. ^^

Just For Laughs

2009-11-09T01:33:00.000-08:00

=D

2009-11-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

门若推不开，不妨拉一下。

Happy Birthday, Casey.

2009-10-31T06:02:00.000-07:00

Night Market

2009-10-29T08:44:00.000-07:00

I had my dinner last night at Connaught Night Market! I'm sure you've heard of the longest and largest pasar malam at Taman Connaught around Cheras area? I went there last night with my friends since this week is pretty relaxing after 4 weeks of ultra hectic life at the university. We've decided to set our mind free and simply indulge ourselves in lotsa lotsa delicious FOOD! such as lok lok, China burger, crispy peanut and corn waffle, Taiwanase wantan, sotong balls, curry fish balls, homemade ice cream etc etc etc... They sell a wide variety of food and accessories and I'm just feeling so happy and satisfied. =)

Anyway, I've bought a couple of "Maggi" hair ties! Those wire-like hair ties that look exactly like Maggi mee? Yea. My friends call them "Maggi". LOL. Last night when I was busy choosing and looking around, Casey spotted a red one but accidentally dropped it on the road. We tried to find but we were practically clueless, the place was dark and it was kinda impossible to search for it so I asked Casey to cabut but she being a very "nice and honest" girl, refused to. So we tried again and at the mean time my right hand went to dig into the small opened compartment at the side of my esprit bag then I felt something... something familiar but strange. The moment I took out that alien object I was literally stunned to see the red thingy on my own palm. I felt so embarrassed cus if someone sees the picture they could have thought I wanted to steal! Gosh..

I did more silly stuffs that night not that I wanted to. How would I know if the bears would drop on the road? I just touched them very gently with my fingertips. Really. Not my fault at all. =P

Peppercorn 2

2009-10-24T05:46:00.000-07:00

Peppercorn was my all time favorite restaurant. The chef used to cook super yummylicious dory fish with prawn cream sauce and mouth-watering tomato soup that can't be resisted. Kaisin, Steph and I loved the food so much that we would be there at least once a week to fulfill our sinful cravings. Just as I look back, I realized how much memories have been left behind in that particular restaurant. That's the place we've made good friends, met new people and had much fun. The aunt treated us as VERY regular customers and she always knew what we wanted, whether chips or boiled potatoes, ice-cream or jelly. One rule to obey is to finish all your food or else she would probably give you a lecture or two, well... most of the time we obeyed her rule. lol.

*Sigh* I miss Peppercorn. Alot. I was told that it has closed down because the aunt's husband (the chef) has just passed away? When my friend told me, I thought it was joke but she was right, it takes only one second to make a difference. Life's short. No matter how hard you work and strive, one day when the time's up, you just have to leave. I've just been there months ago with Steph. How would I know if it was meant to be the last one for us? Unpredictable.

I hope she's fine and over it.

Maybe the message was just a plain mistake. Maybe I should go check it out tomorrow. Hopefully...

♥

2009-10-16T23:46:00.000-07:00

When mom and dad don't understand, a sister always will.

Update

2009-10-13T03:06:00.000-07:00

Going into my 4th week, lecture notes are piling up, reports and assignments are coming in. Oh NO.

I've been busy these days and sorry I don't have much time to update my blog. Well I know it's boring probably cuz I'm a boring person. Basically I went to Kuantan last week for the IIUM Pharmacy Quiz, no we didn't win cuz we weren't categorized for the competition, we actually competed with the 4th year students! How unfair, so I guess this is it, that trip was more like a holiday to us, we celebrated mooncake festival together with mini assorted mooncakes! I've posted loads of pictures on facebook and yeah I guess if you really wanna know more I believe pictures tell a thousand words.

Besides that, I've attended my mom's convocation ceremony last Saturday on 10/10/09. It was pretty impressive to see many people from different categories and countries that took Buddhism seriously as an education. Most importantly, I'm very proud of her. <3

Bentong, Pahang

2009-09-25T02:07:00.000-07:00

Singapore trip was a blast! *full stop*

I will TRY MY BEST to update soon.

The very next day after I got home from Singapore, I had to travel all the way to Bentong for another voluntary work. The Bentong's temple is somewhere near Genting Highland with wonderful scenery. All you can find there is peace. There are a total of 5 buildings up the mountain with a continuous flight of stairs from the bottom to the top. As usual, climbing the stairway was a challenging task to me but it was all worth it when the moment I saw so gorgeous view and felt like the world was under my feet, the feeling was heavenly. Life's very simple over there, I was once told that the purpose of having a place there is to let us know that life can be as simple as that. Humans always tend to complicate things which are often unnecessary and finally lead to depression and devastation. All in all, the trip was a wonderful one, I helped to set up the library and did some cleaning job at the dormitory. Most importantly, I know that I've done something meaningful this holiday. My first summer long break is definitely not any other holidays that I had before, it's something different and worth the time. =)

So, there goes my 4 months break, hello Nottingham again!

I'm looking forward for a great semester ahead, I'm gonna work hard to achieve better grades and strive to be a better person.

Being suspicious or not?

2009-09-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

There are still great people around us. Most of us have this mindset which was taught and educated since young such as...

1) DO NOT ACCEPT FREE GIFTS FROM STRANGERS,
2) IF YOU SEE A STRANGER, REMEMBER THE DANGER.

etc.

I'm sure most of you already know about all these, these are in fact very useful self-protection skills in the society nowadays, especially for ladies. I myself was taught in the same way as well. What happened in Singapore was a stranger initiated a small chat with a friend of mine, he asked some personal questions like where do you stay and where you're from, in the end he offered a packet of plums. Is it wrong to take it? Morally, we should appreciate his kindness instead of having a wild guess on people's sincerity. How do you feel when the situation is in the other way round? Is it necessary to be somewhat suspicious? We're just too reluctant to face the unpleasant facts and our pessimistic expectations. Of course what I meant was not to be over-suspicious, we still need to beware of those 'beasts', it depends on judgments and it's hard and never easy. People might think I'm too naive but I have my own reasons behind. Only those who truly understand me will know what I'm actually thinking. I think good doesn't mean I do not know how to take care of myself.

Just because I'm bored

2009-09-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

Setting mah foot on Singapore!

It's 8.46 in the morning and I just can't be bothered to recheck my luggage bag. I hate packing! Why can't I just shift my entire room over. Damn, this is gonna be really bad next year, at this time when I needa pack SO MUCH to UK! Mind you, this Spore trip is only 4 days. How much am I going to pack to UK!? Omg. I'll turn crazy thinking about it.

Camera - Check!
A pair of shades - Check!
Cap - Check!
Hand Sanitizer - Check!

Ready for the adventure.

=.=

Lame la.

Bye.

=)

2009-09-07T01:00:00.000-07:00

Many years back, we were only a bunch of standard 6 kiddos. Striving for good grades, excellence and nothing else. We know nothing about the outside world.

Many years later...

Here we are! the 6H foursome!

I've been spending my holiday wisely.=D

Happy Birthday!

2009-09-05T00:00:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th birthday to my September babies!

Little Sheng Sheng and Ms Kai Ng!

Little Yik! I would like apologize again for the late wishes, oops my bad. =P
Hope you had a blast with your cool Aussie friends and Megan Lee. *wink*

Kaisin! OH Emm GEe! It's your big day today! I'm hereby wishing you a very happy merry and selamat 10 + 10 birthday! Can you still remember how we celebrated your birthday last two years? We were having AS exam, trials I suppose and we were studying together at my house, you left early that day to celebrate with your Sri KL dudes and left me alone in piles of chemistry and math past papers. I drew a garfield for you as a present. =D. You must be missing me very badly right now. *hugs*

It's amazing at how we've met and became close friends. I still remember my first question to you was, do you know Yuen Tian Yi? Hahaha... Alright then, have BIG fun on your BIG day and not forgetting me, stephy and little yik. You better come back to Malaysia cuz we really miss you loads!

I love our pictures and I believe there's definitely more than this.

We must at least accomplish our Sabah mission before I leave to England alright? That's our next destination after Sarawak.
All the best in your studies. Remember to keep us updated at all time.
I like the idea of sending postcards.
Looking forward to getting one from US and Aussie!
Till then, goodbye.

XOXO

Reunion

2009-09-03T20:32:00.000-07:00

The very sweet 'hwee-hwee-loves-me' picture

Dinner at Sunway TGIF after deciding for almost an hour

I've been meeting up with my primary classmates pretty often lately, after almost 8 years apart! I'm really grateful to see them all again, we have so much stories to share and memories to look back. When I was young, I used to hate Lick Hung for some reasons but come to think of it, Lick Hung wasn't that bad after all, without the school and the education they have, I might not be the Siao Han that everyone knows and I wouldn't have known the bunch of amazing people like them.

Only until recently, memories of my childhood started to flash back and forth, I remembered who I was back then and how they've changed me into a better person. We spent the whole 6 years together, 6 years! We grew up in a classroom and tasted bitter sweet together. If only cameras were popular, we could have taken millions, billions and trillions of pictures! I can still remember how stupid and naive we were by thinking that it would be less pain if we apply a layer of glue before caning and not forgetting our hell-like punishments such as pulling ears in public outside other classrooms, standing on chairs or even worse on tables! etc... etc...

On the other hand, we still play hard besides heavy homework load, exams and competitions. Gossips, rumours, autograph books, colored pens, pets, tortoises, hamsters, fishes. There was once Zong Sheng bought me a tortoise but it escaped from his pocket during recess time but fortunately Liu Lao Shi, our class teacher brought it back to class cuz she found it crawling on the canteen floor! Nobody dared to admit but I had the tortoise back at last, thanks to Pei Xia. =D There are so many other small little fragments of memories that I would like to really appreciate and remember. Hopefully our friendships remain and last. Looking forward to see them soon.

The "uber-awesome" faces

The four of us, we were close friends and always together.

Me and Hwee Hwee.
People used to think that we're twins. Do we still look alike?

Note HH: Since when do you use my picture on your library card?!?

Did you know....

2009-08-14T20:20:00.000-07:00

Flu and colds are different? They are caused by different types of viruses.

This is what I found from a brochure:

1) Flu

Fever - usual; high (37 to 39 degree Celsius, occasionally higher, especially in younger children); last 3 to 4 days
Headache - common
General aches and pains - usual; often severe
Fatigue and weakness - usual; can last up to 2 to 3 weeks
Stuffy nose - sometimes
Sneezing - sometimes
Sore throat - sometimes
Chest discomfort, cough - common; can become severe

2) Common colds

Fever - rare
Headache - rare
General aches and pains - slight
Fatigue and weakness - sometimes
Stuffy nose - common
Sneezing - usual
Sore throat - common
Chest discomfort, cough - mild to moderate; hacking cough

Many people do not know which is which, when to see a doctor or what medication is appropriate. What's important is there's no cure for common colds cuz any antibiotics are of no use against cold viruses. Therefore, if you have any symptoms related to a cold, you can simply get some medication from a pharmacist to save up some consultation fee =P. BUT, if you suspect to have a FLU, please go see a doctor cuz you need antibiotics.

As you know, pharmacists are not allowed to dispense antibiotics without a prescription.

Meanwhile...

Uncle: Miss, where can I find Panadol?
Me: At the cashier counter please.
Uncle: Okay, urmmm, what about paracetamol?
Me: Panadol is paracetamol.
Uncle: Oh, aiya, I test you only mar.
Me: =.=.

END.

Beethoven Virus

2009-08-03T05:09:00.000-07:00

What I've been up to in the past couple of days?

I was so caught up in a Korean drama called "Beethoven Virus"! Awesomeness!

If you love music, instruments and orchestras,

Watch! Why not?

Music is so beautiful, it awakens your heart and brings you closer to nature. I used to think that talented musicians are angels from the heaven, they came down to the earth to educate us, to bring us harmony, no more wars, hatred and betrayal cuz music opens up and touches everyone's soul.

BTW..

Do you know that...

Green tea actually increases metabolism? it has been shown scientifically to increase resting energy expenditure by 4 % which means burning more calories! It also contains catechin polyphenols to promote thermogenesis, a process where the body burns fats to create heat.

Medicines

2009-07-28T20:18:00.000-07:00

I feel like puking... =S

Sick

2009-07-28T03:00:00.000-07:00

When I say I have fever and flu, everyone goes H1N1!

=.=...

Yes I was having very high fever yesterday, partly cuz I had to work in an extreme cold pharmacy without a proper sweater. It was a hell suffering 8 hours.

Went back home, had 2 Panadols and went to sleep under the blanket without fan for 19 hours straight.

On MC today.

=D. It feels so good having a chance to rot at home. Once in awhile at least.

By the way, I had so much fun with Randolamos last weekend. I love it!

More pictures coming in fb.

To all my friends out there, pls take care and drink lotsa water!

Stuffs

2009-07-19T02:07:00.001-07:00

Weight Management

In conjunction with the weight management month at Caring pharmacy, everyone is encouraged to perform the body composition thingy I was telling earlier, for FREE! I did it again this week and realized that I've lost a kg over the week and my fats to gain eventually became 0.6 kg instead of 0.5 kg earlier. I was like =.=. Should I or should I not believe the machine? lol.

And guess what! The new trainee pharmacist knows Mr Wong Kok Thong!

I was having a little chit chat with her on the other day partly about her own past experience in the clinical field cuz I've always shown interest in it. Then she gave me a very vast comparison. She said she watched people die each day when she was in-charge with the HIV patients. OMG. There's seriously no joke when talking about working in a hospital.

Salsa Night

May May Leong a.k.a Yam Yam is back from the Aussie! She was caught in flu and sore-throat and ended up being quarantined for a week. I thought she was quarantined at a hospital or a hotel and I was freaking worried for her. But in the end, I found out that she was just quarantined at home. =.=

We met up last Friday, had dinner at a Spanish restaurant, danced salsa with her and Lianne Letitia Ritchie at a little after ten. Lianne's boyfriend, Peter Davidson joined us later. May! Thanks for teaching me some salsa movements, I love it! I wanna pick up some dance classes if I have the time. I want my flexible body back so that I can do splits and bridges again like those good old days.

The food was delicious and yummylicious!

Woot~ May got invited to dance!

What girls always do? Camwhore.

The 6th Humanistik Charity Run 2009

6.3 km. We made it!

I'm so glad to have participated in this meaningful event. The main objective of this annual event is to collect donations to provide educational opportunities for needy students.

Many people came to support. Some sponsored food, some are voluntary workers like my mum. To me every runner is a true winner. The most important thing is not about winning the medal but to finish the track with great courage and determination. For example, some participants especially the elderly and children like a mother pushing the son in a trolley and a dad carrying his injured daughter. This small little details made things so beautiful.

Besides that, I really have to thank Chia Yin and her dad, they went through so many obstacles in the highways, made the wrong U turns and wrong turnings before they finally made it on time. Her dad just came back from Malacca the night before and Bi had a broken arm, poor thing. But they still came to support the event. How sweet is that? Thank you darling! (Muacks 1000X)...

We made it!

Congratulations Chia Yin! She won the sixth place! I'm so proud of you! That was me representing her during prize giving ceremony. (She left earlier for some personal reasons)

Sigh

2009-07-15T08:03:00.000-07:00

Today is a bad day I suppose? I lost a 100 ringgit credit card receipt today when I was on duty as a cashier. I really hope they could find it out or figure out a solution or something by tomorrow morning. I'm so upset. How if I really have to pay that amount? 100 is still a huge figure to me. I have no idea why I so malang these days, I even broke a bottle of Clarityne syrup the other day and ended up mopping the floor like a mad maid over and over again, what's wrong with me???

I miss my friends.

I miss uni life.

I wanna go back to that ULU place.

I wanna go for a vacation.

I wanna take a deep deep breath at somewhere peaceful and green.

I need to go sun bathing by the beach, I'm freaking fair now.

Well well... there's good news as well, I've gotten a free bottle of strawberry goodnight mask worth RM 35. Cool?

Okay that was random.

But at least now that I feel a little better.

Night. (I'm so tired, legs and shoulders are hurting like nobody's business, salonpas anybody? I'm an old woman.)

XD

2009-07-13T05:30:00.000-07:00

DON'T KISS MY FIT BODY?

DON'T KISS MY FAT BODY!

LOL!@#$^&*

I did a full body composition analysis in the pharmacy the other day.

Guess what? They want me to gain another 0.5 kg of fats.

GILA!

Fats! Who needs you!

XD...

A Cheesy Treat

2009-07-11T07:41:00.000-07:00

At PASTA de GOHAN ... !!!

Blueberry Coffee!

Curls anyone?

2009-07-08T08:17:00.000-07:00

What should I do to my hair?!!!

I need a change.

Curls no?

Arrgh..! I feel like plucking flower petals.

Curls... no curls.. curls... no curls...

Opinions puhlease!

=X

Cold

2009-07-08T07:11:00.000-07:00

I'm so sick of that someone being so inconsiderate and immature.

I'm so sick of myself being so mean and cold blooded.

I hate myself for it. I blame myself for it.

It was me.

Not him.

All my fault. All mine.

YEeee Haaar

2009-07-05T05:41:00.000-07:00

I'm so damn excited!

1. Humanistik Charity Run on the 19th!

2. Getting my first month salary soon.

3. Lagoon outing with my peeps.

4. Porridge steamboat tryout.

5. My darling sister's coming back. *MUACKS*

Trained To Care

2009-07-01T07:34:00.000-07:00

"Caring is our profession,
together we care."

I had a short training today by one of the representatives from the company on the product Clarinase, a medicine for cold and flu. First, they introduced the active ingredients which are pseudoephedrine and loratadine which acts as a decongestant and anti-histamine respectively. Then to their proudly presented Repetab technology. As the name implies, repetab tech produces tablets with two layers, the first outer layer would dissolve in the acidic stomach in the first 6 hours then followed by the inner core in another 6 hours in the more alkaline small intestine. Therefore, the drug effects would last for a total of 12 hours instead of just 6 hours. The process repeats twice thus the duration doubles, making sense? haha. I hope so.

After that we proceeded to anti-histamines and anti-inflammation from Clarityne, Zyrtec, Zensil to Aerius. So interesting I know! We were treated with KFC after that, each person with a set of snack plate! Awesome-ness! Despite the fact that some malay lady customer who really pissed me off. Okay I got over it and not going to mention anymore. Of course there are so many more nice people out there, those who smile back to you and always say thank you. It's a funny world and I'm glad that I'm given a chance to be exposed to all kinds of people in this society.

Joke: Chia Yin, we gonna spot the cameras and pose, appear in the newspaper next day! Let's just hope that both of us don't faint in the middle and "laugh out loud in the fainted dream". LOL.

Summer Novel 2

2009-06-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

The second book of the month

Despite the fact that I've already read this over and over again for three times, I never get bored of it and it always gives me the strange feeling of eeriness, making my hair stand on end. Eeew, I hate it but I love it! Insanity I would say. I bought this book in year 2003 when I was only 14 years old. I searched for this 6-years-old book from my bookshelf 2 weeks ago, something that I would like to do when I was dying in boredom, the book was already partially covered with faint layer of dust and yellow spots.

Horror stories always end without a proper ending, do you realize that? instead the most frightening part is in our own wild imagination and dream.

The book ended like this...

A cold hand fell on Louis's shoulder. Rachel's voice was grating, full of dirt.

"Darling", it said.

What a turn off. Heck. Like I said, what's left is dependent on your own WILD imagination.

But I always look for a good one.

I always do.

A Private Blog

2009-06-29T07:58:00.000-07:00

I'm changing to a private blog soon. I'm kinda serious this time cus I really don't want anymore anonymous to read so much about me.

I feel too exposed.

I will invite those who visit my blog regularly. Those who wanna read my blog or if I have forgotten to invite, just drop me a message.

=).

The Monkey

2009-06-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

She used to camp in my house every Friday after school,

She would bring over an extremely over-exaggerated luggage bag,

With lotsa unnecessary things for a short evening,

My mother saw and literally dropped her jaw hopelessly. I promptly joined her.

She's the sweetest pie who loves bananas,

She told me she ate 8 bananas in one day,

And from there she got a nickname from me, the Monkey. = )

We laugh with tears and cry with laughter.

We fight and argue with complications.

We went crazy before the finals, we danced and sang under the flowing showerhead and gone wild.

She's a weirdo who loves horror movies and never ceased to influence me.

In the end I would have to hide under the blanket alone in the midnight, struggling the fall asleep.

I remember myself laughing my head off when she asked Ms Liew, our chemistry teacher what was blow job in front of the class.

And had mistaken Broke Back Mountain as Broken Back Mountain and read that out aloud during physics tuition class which was then followed by a burst of helpless laughter.

She's brilliant in studies and has been scoring very well in exams. We help each other all the time with lotsa encouragements and comforts.

She did the sweetest thing to surprise me by dropping a small piece of chocolate in my mailbox when I was stressing with my A levels.

She always makes me smile.

She loves to tickle me and my screaming volume will scare her off.

She loves my dog but my bad dog tore a little ribbon from her sandal.

She's always complaining about her weight when she's already as skinny as a broom stick.

The scattered fragments of memories are too much to be written all down.

After all and all, she's a best friend, a soul mate.

I hereby wishing her a very good luck in her further journey down the road, have a blast at your new university!

We shall work hard to fulfill our dreams together, to help as many people as possible in the future with the knowledge we have.

Take Care.

See you again. = )

Just remember that I will be there to put up the smile again on you if anything puts you down.

Friendship

2009-06-16T08:14:00.000-07:00

It's her.
She means something to me.
Thank you. =)