Where am I heading to?

I'm standing on the cross road once again, not knowing which path to choose, and not knowing what's best for me. At times like this, I always hope for someone to make a good decision for me. Many people gave me different opinions, and every one of us looks at life from a different angle. So right now I learn to make my own decision, I can no longer depend on other people's decision because this is my life, and I have to live my own life.

Standing on the cross road, looking at the different pathways that lie ahead of me, I'm lost. Questions and more questions are lifted up to the surface, who? what? when? where? how?? The overwhelming number of questions is simply too much for me to take, I can't breathe. I hate myself when I'm indecisive and pessimistic. I was a naive and happy-go-lucky person. But things have changed, I haven't been acting like myself for some time now, I get emotional quickly and tend to avoid putting trust on other people. All lies, sometimes even unintentional lies are slowly killing away the 100% trust that I used to put in them. Therefore, I think twice before believing a person, and I'm never gonna be the same again...

It's time.